Today has surely been "one of those days" and I just need a minute to be human for a second. Since this afternoon I've had this song on repeat in my mind. I had to just to make it through.
I had a hint that it was going to be "one of those days" when I woke up in a puddle of urine...
Don't worry, it wasn't mine.. Although I'm not sure which would be worse?
Parker woke up again last night with a fever. And by fever I mean 104.5 burning hot lava fever. Needless to say I wasn't sending him back to bed when he was that sick so we let him sleep with us. I had been pumping him full of ice water trying to bring the fever down and keep him hydrated. Well, this morning it back fired on me... literally!
Long story short here's the summary of my day:
*Two kids with fevers
*Two kids with Strep Throat
*One kid that had to get two shots today and literally had her first ever full blown, knock down, drag out fit right in the Doctors office because she was so scared. I've never seen her like that.
*One kid pooped in the bathtub
*One kid "accidentally peed" in her sisters bed because she was too busy to stop playing
*I accidentally pulled out the stitches in my mouth from my surgery last Monday
*I lost the paperwork for the kids school so I had to run around town and get those all filled out- again
But none of that, not even all of that together was as rough as having to say good bye to a cherished friend this morning.
Friday a Pastor at our church, passed away unexpectedly. This man and his family have truly been a blessing to me and our family since we've moved here. I often joked with him that since his grand babies live far away and my kids grandparents live so far that he was our honorary PawPaw. And that's what we called him, the "PawPaw Pastor." That's what everyone called him.
My kids are forever trying to talk me into going to their frozen yogurt shop by sweetly saying "Mom, can we go visit PawPaw Wayne and Mrs. Margret?!" I'm pretty sure they love Wayne and Margret as much as the yogurt. I know I do.
It's moments like today when you really have to stop and put things into prospective. Yes- I am exhausted: physically, mentally and emotionally after today. But even now, as I'm getting ready to end this crazy day with swollen eyes from crying and a pounding headache I am going to bed with a smile and a humble heart.
*I smile because I had the privilege to know Wayne. For him to be my mentor in children's ministry. To call him my friend.
*I smile because there was not a dry eye or an empty chair in that huge church today and I know he meant as much to them as he did to me. He truly was a legend and he left a great legacy to prove it.
*I smile because God trusts me to take care of these, His children when they are sick.
*I smile because we have the resources and the ability to take care of our children when they are sick.
*I smile because I have an amazing support system that allows me to take a day or two and be real about the hurt/anger/sadness I feel towards losing my friend. But they also rejoice with me knowing that he is surely in Heaven with our precious Lord.
*I smile because somehow through it all I was somehow able to get 4 loads of laundry done; including both sets of pee soaked sheets!
I'm not going to lie. I did my fair share of crying today. I cried over spilled water cups, I cried over having to clean up pee for what felt like the hundredth time today. But you know what? This is the stuff that He is using to show me that this "stuff" doesn't matter. As much as it feels like it in the moment- in the end, it doesn't really matter. (Quick! Name that song.) Does that make sense?
Our Pastor said it best today during the service, "When it comes down to it, the things that matter the most are: Who you love and who loves you. That's what you should live your life for. That's what Wayne lived his life for."
"Live Simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly and leave the rest to God."
That was Wayne's favorite saying and he sure lived every bit of it.